Jackie

Sun, 03 Jun 2007 03:20:03 GMT

I absolutely hate the person that I have become.

cuz i can't think anymore

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 02:20:35 GMT

JANUARY

1. Who kissed you on New Year?
nobody cuz i was at home like every year on the computer saying happy new year to whoever was online. NOT THIS YEAR MAN i'm doing something. i dont care what, i'm not staying home on new years

2. Did you have a New Year's resolution this year?
did and i think i actually did them

3. Does it snow where you live?
it's snowed a couple times already. i hope that's it cuz its too cold =p

4. Do you like hot chocolate?
yep yep

5. Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop?
nope

FEBRUARY

1. Who was your Valentine?
most likely no one

2. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class?
hell yea =D

3. Do you care if the groundhog sees its shadow or not?
not at all. i think the weather's gotten too messed up to predict

4. Any specific music for February?
anyhting thats good

MARCH

1. Are you Irish?
nope i'm asian

2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day?
i think i only own one green item of clothing except for the carter uniform and that was recent so nope

3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2006?
probably nothing.. worked? cuz i'm boring like that... but its changing >=)

4. Are you happy when winter is pretty much over?
yep cuz its just too freakin cold

APRIL

1. Do you like the rain?
depends on what kind of rain. and the mood i'm in too. if im hyper and its fairly warm out i like to run out in the rain

2. Did you play an April Fool's joke on anyone this year?
i think i did but can't remember what i did now

3. Do you celebrate 4/20?
whats that?

4. Did you love the month of April?
does anything special happen in april =\

MAY

1. What's your favorite kind of flower?
right now i'm loving the wild flowers that grow in portugal that sean showed me. they're blue and pretty =)

2. Do you like the spring?
sure why not. its not too hot yet or freezing

3. Finish the phrase "April showers":
...bring may flowers?

4. What is the first color you think of when you think of Spring?
pink, purple and blue cuz of easter eggs =)

JUNE

1. What year did/will you graduate from high school?
2006

JULY

1. What did you do on the Fourth of July?
probably worked

2. Did you go on any vacations during this month?
nope worked, never been on vacation

3. Do you blast the A/C all day?
nope, my room was nice and cool and i was at work most of the time anyway

AUGUST

1. Did you do anything special at the end of your summer?
jason's party was pretty cool =) and i was up in barrie a lot. that was fun too ^-^

2. What was your favorite summer memory of '06
afterprom and jason's party

3. Did you get a sunburn?
never burned EVER =D

4. Do you go to the beach a lot?
didn't even go once. i wanna go this year

SEPTEMBER

1. Did you attend school/college in '06?
just started at york

2. If so where; if not, what you do instead?
see above

3. Do you like fall better then summer?
i like the pretty leaves but dont like that school's starting. i'll like it more when school is over

OCTOBER

1. What was your favorite Halloween costume?
gotta love joe's sumo wrestler costume and dewey's kermit and patrick

2. What's your favorite candy?
i like starbursts and throwing wrappers =)

3. What did you dress up
didn't dress up this year

NOVEMBER

1. Whose house did you go to for Thanksgiving?
i think i worked =\

2. Do you love stuffing?
depends on who makes it. sometimes its really good and other times its dry and yuckie

3. What are you thankful for?
having those i love around me =)

DECEMBER

1. Do you celebrate Christmas?
family doesnt do much.. i'm so starting something when i have my own family

2. If not, what do you celebrate?
nothing.. i've been too busy working to do anything. i miss doing stuff

3. Have you ever been kissed under mistletoe?
haha yea by my gr 2 teacher XD she chased me into the hall

4. Get anything special last year?
not sure what i got last year. my favourite christmas present of all time would be my little teddy bear tho =)

5. What do you want this year?
something that u can't get with money. and for sean not to murder me when i give him his.

6. Do you like cold weather?
I like snow but not cold weather

2006
1. How did 2006 overall rate in your book?
it went a lot better than the previous years. i have a feeling it's only going to get better. 2007 should be a blast

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 02:03:52 GMT

i gotta think of a way to do this without getting myself murdered...

Fri, 08 Dec 2006 03:40:07 GMT

1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING?
nope
2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?
the on/off thing with sean since gr 9
3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
joe contributed $50 for my tattoo.. he threatened to tell my mom about it if i gave it back to him
4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?
dropped my new one 3 times now... i got soo upset. it didn't break. i just love it that much.
5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
i got a flat tummy last week =)
6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
gas, parking, stupid braces, random stuff for other ppl
7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
fries at st. louis
8. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD:
actually working, licks. employed for the longest - instore focus
9. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?
i think i've lost them all now
10. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?:
haven't done it in a long time
11. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED:
my seester's in july
12. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY:
oh man.. sean just cuz he knows everything first and i think i'd tell dewey next just cuz i tell him stuff then joe and courtney and whoever else
13. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND:
i saw courtney on the weekend =D
14. CAN YOU COOK?
yep yep
15. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?:
I drive my blue saturn ion with the suicide doors =)
16. MOST DISLIKED FOODS:
spicy stuff
17. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?:
5am - 12 pm i think it was. open - close shift at licks.. most brutal day
18. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?
never been
19. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?:
Laptop
20. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?:
yep if you're willing to try

21. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?
once, and i hope it stays that way. i went 110 in a 50 zone and he bumped it down to 10 over
22. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
both.. had lots of pancakes so french toast now
23. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?:
i dont drink it
24. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
i like it the way sean made it.. not really sure what he put in it now but it was scrambled =p
25. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?:
Sean
26. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?:
cousin ginny trying to make me laugh and succeeded.. worst timing ever though
27. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?:
3
28. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?:
short sweater and low pants cuz the tattoo is bugging me
29. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC:
this is the story of a girl who cried a river and drowned the whole world. while she looks so sad in photographs i absolutely love her when she smillllllles =)
30. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?:
JASON BRENNAN XD hehehe anything's good
31. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?:
yep but i suck
32. CAN YOU SWIM?
i know how to swim.... yet i still doggy paddle
33. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?
not so much. i like to get lost while i find my way there unless i need to be there at a specific time and cant be late
34. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF:
i laugh a lot when sean blows off a zombie's head in resident evil 4
35. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?:
maybe?
36. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?
5am.. almost late for work
37. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?:
pretty snow
38. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?:
first midterm ever. almost made me late. sped quite a bit on the highway afterwards to make it on time
39. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?:
i dont really care about pirates
40. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND??
going up to barrie tomorrow and probably gonna stay there till sunday morning. weeeee spent almost all week there ^-^
41. BIRTHDATE?
Feb 16
42. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?:
Yep
43. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?
yea a little but its not so bad
44. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?
Nope =D not even in university for the rest of the month =)
45. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?:
Nope, september
46. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?:
i've never gone on vacation. i would like one
47. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?:
dont think so.. unless that gr 8 grad trip was considered a cruise
48. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?
yea, her name is Bertha XD
49. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?:
yep in my room
50. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?
yep when i got really sick during the summer
51. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?
yea, i freaking want to see courtney. i haven't seen joe in awhile either.. same with alex, dewey, and the list goes on.

part deux

1. I've come to realize that my ex... is really really weird.. stupid asians =)
2. I am listening to... smack that- akon & eminem
3. I talk... to ppl who are willing to listen
4. I love... someone who may or may not feel the same way about me. and even tho it's really hard sometimes, i love my family
5. My best friends... will always be my best friends cuz i'm stubborn that way
6. My first kiss was... fuckin hilarious. i laughed cuz it felt so weird. then he came along.. and every time still feels like the first
7. I lost my virginity... when we skipped student appreciation day
8. I hate it when people... drive 80 in the fast lane
9. Love is... overrated
10. Marriage is... a little to early to be thinking about
11. Somewhere, someone is thinking.... about exams cuz its just that time
12. I'll always... be Jackie
13. I have a secret crush on... it's not really a secret but meh.. i'll admit i still like sean
14. The last time I cried was because.... i was really pissed off
15. My cell phone.... is the coolest
16. When I woke up in the morning... I didn't want to go to work
17. Before I go to sleep at night... i turn off my lights, turn down my music a little and find my teddy
18. Right now I am thinking about... how the hell i'm gonna get beer for tomorrow =p
19. Babies are... really cute
20. I get on myspace...never
21. Today I... feel sick but hoping it'll go away very soon
22. Tonight I will... go to sleep earlier
23. Tomorrow I will... go to my orthodontist appointment, try to get the beer then head up to barrie
24. I really want... to move out

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 21:39:42 GMT

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 04:31:22 GMT

I feel like a completely different person and I don't like it at all. I want to smile and laugh for real. I'm getting really tired of faking it and it's getting harder and harder to do. I'm sick of everything and sick of certain people.. especially the ones who know nothing about me and continuously try to shove their way into my life.
I'm sick of trying to show a different face to different people because I don't want some to know what's going on.
I hate the person I've turned into and I want things to go back to the way they were.. so I can go back to being the person I was.. or at least so I can be happy again.. even just a little bit.

because i'm bored and lazy

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 17:42:42 GMT

1. are you missing someone right now?
yep like hell but i can't show it

2. are you happy?
not really..probably won't change any time soon but i'll get over it eventually

3. are you talking to anyone right now?
not anymore

4. are you bored?
very. i need to keep my mind occupied

5. are you german?
i'm a fuckin asian according to jason, sean, and many many others

6. are you irish?
nope

7. are you french?
nope

8. are you italian?
they could've saved themselves the questions and simply asked 'what is your background'

9. are your parents still married?
nope

10. do you like someone right now?
still like him a lot and again, it's not gonna change for awhile. buuut there's nothing i can do about it.

TEN FAVOURITES

1. televison show:
family guy, 70s show, malcolm in the middle, simpsons.. probably others too

2. flower:
they all die

3. color:
blue, and baby colours

4. sport:
anything. its more fun to play than to watch on tv

5. mall:
eh..

6. band:
too many

8. season:
fall cuz of the pretty leaves, summer cuz theres no school, winter cuz the snow is pretty but i dont like how cold it is

9. animal:
dogs

10. state:
wherever its nice =p

TEN FACTS
1. hair color:
reddish brownish.. natural is black

2. phone color:
black with silver on the sides

3. car color:
blue

4. hair style:
boring thing for years, only longer now

5. eye color:
really dark brown.. sean says their black

6. shoe size:
5 - 7

7. ring size:
5? i dunno how those go

8. skin color:
asian

10. lefty/righty:
both

TEN LOVE THINGS

1. have you ever been in love?
Yea

2. do you believe in love?:
guess so

5. have you ever broken someone's heart?:
yep so i guess i get what i deserve?

6. Have you ever fallen for one of your best friends?
yea

8. are you afraid of commitment?:
No i dont think so

9. has someone ever kissed your hand?:
yep

10. have you ever had a secret admirer?:
theres a reason why its a secret

TEN THIS OR THAT

1. love or lust:
love

2. hard liquor or beer:
no clue

4. one night stands or relationships:
Relarionships. one night stands are stupid

5. television or internet:
you can watch whats on tv on the internet

6. pepsi or coke:
Neither

8. money or family:
Family.. if only they weren't so obsessed with money

9. phone or in person:
In person. phone just isn't the same

10. msn or myspace:
MSN

and now i go back to doing nothing.

at least i know now.

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 03:57:34 GMT

I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be
I say all the right things at exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why

It's gonna suck.. but I'll move on.

..eventually.

I hate how I can never think of what to say until it's too late.

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 15:04:33 GMT

No more Shoppers and no more Rich =)

Life is great =D

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 14:38:44 GMT

<td align="center"> Jacqueline --
[adjective]:

Visually addictive

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

haha

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 00:25:10 GMT

Got rid of the unwanted job

Next: getting rid of the unwanted "bf"

Then: Great job, greatest guy, high marks, more time.. amazingness =)

Can't wait till Friday ^-^

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 04:25:39 GMT

For the first time ever, I actually have confidence in myself.

It feels amazing.

2 months

Gr. 1

Gr. 2

Gr. 5

Gr. 6

Gr. 12

Gr. 12 grad

July 8, 2006

Sept. 16, 2006

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 04:01:29 GMT

Level 1
( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar
( ) smoked weed
(x) kissed a member of the same sex (on the lips) haha by accident alex =p
(x) drank alcohol

SO FAR: 2

Level 2
(x) are/been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight

SO FAR: 5

Level 3
(x) snuck out of a parent's house
( ) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone out on a blind date

SO FAR: 6

Level 4
( ) had a crush on an older person
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone/something die

SO FAR: 7

Level 5
( ) had/have a crush on one of ur MYSPACE friends.
( ) been to Paris
( ) been to Spain
( ) been on a plane
(x) thrown up from drinking

SO FAR: 8

Level 6
(x) eaten Sushi
(x) been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
( ) been mosh pitting

SO FAR: 10

Level 7
( ) been in an abusive relationship
( ) taken pain killers
( ) love/loved someone who you cant have
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel

SO FAR: 12

Level 8
( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
( ) built a sand castle
( ) gone puddle jumping
( ) played dress up

SO FAR: 13

Level 9
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school

SO FAR: 14

Level 10
( ) used a fake/someone else's ID
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
( ) killed a snake

so far: 15

Level 11
(x) been tickled fez!!
( ) been robbed/vandalized
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
( ) pet a deer

SO FAR: 17

Level 12
( ) won a contest
( ) been suspended from school
( ) had detention
(x) been in a car/motorcycle/4-wheeler accident

SO FAR: 18

Level 13
(x) had/have braces
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 21

Level 14
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes

SO FAR: 24

Level 15
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the world
( ) swam in the ocean/gulf
(x) felt like you were dying

SO FAR: 27 alex was at 49 here

Level 16
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
( ) sang karaoke
( ) paid for a meal with only coins

SO FAR: 29

Level 17
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) kissed in the rain

SO FAR: 33

Level 18
( ) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
( ) watched the sun set with someone you care(d) about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach McKim: "Sean, stop using that lighter fluid like a pussy"

SO FAR: 35

Level 19
( ) crashed a party
( ) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true

SO FAR: 37

Level 20
( ) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed "penis" in class
( ) swimming with dolphins

SO FAR: 37

Level 22
( ) got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cube
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(x) sat on a roof top

SO FAR: 39 alex was at 70...

Level 23
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x) done/attempted a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night

SO FAR: 43

Level 24
(x) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had/been in a tree house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone

SO FAR: 47

Level 25
( ) believe in ghosts
( ) have/had more than 30 pairs of shoes in your life
( ) gone streaking
( ) gone to jail

SO FAR: 47

Level 26
( ) played chicken
( ) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on sean tries
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused

SO FAR: 49

Level 27
( ) caught a fish then ate it
( ) made a porn video
( ) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
( ) cried so hard you laughed

SO FAR: 50

Level 28
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
(x) French braided someones hair
( ) gone skinny dipping
( ) been kicked out of your house

SO FAR: 56

Level 30
(x) Rode a roller coaster
( ) went scuba-diving/snorkeling
( ) had a cavity
( ) Black-mailed someone
( ) been black mailed

SO FAR: 57

Level 31
( ) Been used
(x) fell going up the stairs
( ) licked a cat
(x) bitten someone
(x) licked someone

SO FAR: 60

Repost this with ...
I have done 60 out of 145 stupid things.

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 02:40:35 GMT

finally. =)

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 16:32:09 GMT

i'm definitely not over sean at all. hearing him on the phone made me realize i don't want another relationship right now, whether it works out with us or not.

i had the craziest dream.. skipping all the details, it ended with sean suggesting that we just basically run away from it all. i move to barrie with him and get away from my jobs and rich. i loved it and agreed right away. it seemed so real that i woke up thinking of how to break it to rich. i dont know what to do. =\

i know that i can't wait around forever and i can't keep dragging this on.

we built it up to watch it fall like we meant nothing at all

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 04:42:33 GMT

*sigh*... i want to be with sean. i wish it would work out with us.. i thought it would. it seemed like it was gonna go somewhere the last few times i saw him. i was happy and had hope. but it could have all been in my head - i don't know. maybe i imagined most of what happened or wasn't seeing things too clearly. i've liked him for so long. i still like him. a lot. love? i don't know. could be. but it's gotta be all one-sided. everyone in that other post said to give the new guy a chance. i didn't want to listen though. i still don't.. but i think i've realized that this is all just in my head and it's never going to work out because he doesn't want it to. he doesn't like me that way and it's time i realized that and gave up on it.. no matter how much i don't want to. matison told me to give rich a chance and to get over sean for a few reasons.. they all made sense too. 1 - he said there's nothing worse than a girl who likes a guy for a long time (not going out, but still crazy about the guy). 2 - he's not even trying.. i'd have nothing to lose and a lot to gain... i don't want to lose sean at all, no matter what we are. he's been there for me through pretty much everything. i don't want to turn down every guy i meet just because i'm still hung up on someone who doesn't feel anything for me.
what good would being with rich do anyway? i'll only wish it was sean instead. blah.
his msn name is right - women are more complicated than a turbo fed supercharger.
maybe not all women, but i know me for sure -_-

my turn =p

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 05:06:55 GMT

I'd say Margaret Cho looks a hell of a lot more like Lily than me

I'm gonna give Rich a chance.

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 18:43:35 GMT

forget the new guy and any other guy. i'm happy with the way everything is right now =)

no sister for 3 weeks starting today

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 02:52:56 GMT

How Old Were You When You First ....

Fell in love - i don't even know if it's love

Lost someone close to you - n/a

Drank alcohol - 18

Smoked weed - never

Got kissed - 14?

Got your heart broken - 15

Got arrested - never

Smoked a cigarette - never

Broken a bone - never

Got cheated on - never.. i'm sure

Rode the city bus - probably like 2 with grandma

Went to a concert - never

Met someone famous - i met william shatner in gr 10 lol

Dyed your hair - 14

Got your own cell phone - 16

Had first boy/girl friend - 14

Got a myspace - never

Snuck out of the house - 13/14 but to see courtney =p

Got your own digital camera - 16/17

First time u got drunk - 18

How old are you now - 18

***

TEN FAVORITES;
01. televison show:
Simpsons

02. flower:
no favourite

03. Color:
blue

04. Sport:
no favourite

05. Mall:
vaughn mills

06. Music:
pretty much anything

07. Food:
no favourite

08. Season:
Fall.. right now i wouldn't mind winter

09. animal:
baby anything

10. City:
i dont like cities

***

TEN FACTS
01. Hometown:
Aurora/Newmarket

02. Hair color:
original - black
currently - brown

03. Hair length:
long

04. Hair style:
Straight >=(

05. eye color:
dark brown

06. Shoe size:
kids 4 - women's 6.5 depends on the shoe

07. Mood:
tired

08. Orientation:
chinese.. i think that's what that meant =\

09. Available?:
yes and no

10. Lefty/righty:
both

***

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
01. Have you ever been in love?

02. Do you believe in love:
yea

03. Why did your last relationship fail:
nothing there between us. should've ended sooner than it did. it dragged on for way too long

04. Have you ever been heartbroken:
yep

05. Have you ever broken someone's heart:
yep

06. Have you ever fallen for your best friend:
guess so

07. Have you ever loved someone but never told them:
trying not to tell him

08. Are you afraid of commitment:
nope

09. Have you ever kissed someone you liked?
yep

10. Have you ever had a secret admirer:
dont think so

***

TEN THINGS: THIS OR THAT;
01. Love or money:
love. i hate money

02. Hard liquor or beer:
dont know

03. Night or day:
day

04. One night stands or relationships:
Relationships.

05. Televison or internet:
Internet.

06. Pepsi or coke:
Nestea =p

07. Wild night out or romantic night in:
romantic night in

08. Colored or black and white photos :
Depends on what's happening in the picture

09. Phone or in person:
In person

10. AIM or Myspace:
MSN

TEN HAVE YOU EVERS;
01. Have you ever been caught sneaking out:
yea cuz my sister told on me every time before

02. Have you ever skinny dipped:
nope

03. Have you ever done something you regret:
so many things

04. Have you ever bungee jumped:
not yet

05. Have you ever been on a house boat:
nope

06. Have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker:
years ago

07. Have you ever wanted someone so badly it hurt:
that's one way of putting it

10. Have you ever been caught by your parents doing it?:
nope... wow, how would u talk ur way out of that? "hey, wanna join?" =p "uhh.. i fell and it broke my fall" =p

***

TEN EMOTIONS
01. are you missing someone right now:
Yep

02. are you happy:
somewhere under all the weird emotions, i'm happy, yea

03. are you talking to anyone right now:
nope

04. are you bored:
yep, very

05. are you german:
no..

06. are you irish:
chineseeee

07. are you french:
neu

08. are you Italian:
nope

09. are your parents still married:
i dont think they were married ever. that's right, i'm a bastard =p

10. do you like someone right now:
it's been quite a few years now

***

N0W.
01. is your hair up: yep. too hot to leave it down
02. is your phone right beside you: yup
03. do you have a bf/ gf: nope
04. do you miss someone: yep
05. are you wearing makeup: nope.. it'd only melt off
06. are you wearing chapstick: yep
07. are you cold: my feet are cuz the a/c's on
08. are you tired: a little
09. are you excited: excited, scared, nervous, worried, anxious... i dont know what to expect after this month
10. are you watching t.v: nope
11. are you wearing pajamas: nope

***

PAST
01. recently done anything you regret: lots of things
02. ever lied: yep
03. ever stuck gum under a desk: don't think so
04. ever kicked someone: haha what a question. i can reach peter's head, i've bruised pat's face, i kicked jason in the jaw.. and now i have steel-toed shoes
05. ever tripped over your own feet: way too many times
06. ever thrown up because you cried so hard: ew... no

***

TODAY
01. have you cursed: yep, i hate getting accused for shit i didn't do
02. have you yelled at someone: nope
03. have you gotten mad at someone: yep
04. have you cried: nope
05. have you called more than 3 people: i haven't called anybody
06. have you IMed more than 3 people: they IMed me first

***

Q&As

Q 01: is there a person who is on your mind right now?
A 01: yep.

Q 02: where is the last place you went?
A 02: shoppers drug mart

Q 03: who is the last person you called?
A 03: called my brother last night

Q 04: do you look like your mom and dad?
A 04: used to look a lot like dad.. not much resemblance now

Q 05: do you have any siblings?
A 05: christine - 28, daniel - 21, bertha - 16, karen - 21, jeremy - 11, jamie - 10, eddie - 9

Q 06: do you smile often?
A 06: yep

Q 07: do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
A 07. nope

Q 08: do you wish on stars?
A 08: nope

Q 09: do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
A 09: Nope, i purposely tied them under the tongue so i'd never have to tie them again

Q 10: when did you last cry?
A 10: no idea

Q 11: do you like your handwriting?
A 11: when it looks nice, i do

Q 12: are you a friendly person?
A 12: most of the time

Q 13: who's bed did you sleep in last night?
A 13: mine

Q 14: what color shirt are you wearing?
A 14: blue

Q 15: do you have any pets?
A 15: nope

Q 16: what is the color of your bedsheets?
A 16: white and green

Q 17: what were you doing at 9 last night?
A 17: working

Q 18: i can't wait til..
A 18: i get a car, finish university, finish all the tests i have to go thru, get the job i want, move out... i have my whole house designed in my head already from top floor to basement. wee

Q 19: is tom on your friends list?
A 19: who the hell is tom

Q 20: look to your right. what's there?
A 20: my bed and the phone

Q 21: do you own a camera phone?
A 21: nope

Q 22: ever cried yourself to sleep?
A 22: yep

Q 23: ever cried on your friends shoulder?
A 23: yep

Q 24: song that makes you cry?
A 24: depends on my mood

Q 25: are you normally a happy person?
A 25: Yup

Q 26: has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?
A 26: yep

Q 27: is your self-esteem extremely low?
A 27: not anymore

28: current music?
A 28: Nick Lachey - I Can't Hate You Anymore

***

The Real Me

Would you rather..

[ ] Ask someone out.
[x] Be asked out.

[x] Have a sunny day
[ ] Have a rainy day

[x] Have a computer
[ ] Have a cell phone

[ ]be poor & live till you're 100.
[x] Be rich & live till you're 30.

[ ] Be blind.
[x] Be deaf.

[ ] Have it be Winter all year round.
[ ] Have it be Summer all year round. i dunno... right now, winter's lookin pretty good.

[ ] Be beautiful.
[x] Be loved.

[ ] Take a bath.
[x] Take a shower.

[x] Be born poor and die rich.
[ ] Be born rich and die poor.

[x] never have to go to school.
[ ] never have to go to the dentist.

[ ] Never feel physical pain
[x] Never feel emotional pain

[x] Wear glasses/contacts.
[ ] Wear braces

***

You are..

[ ] Short. 5'0 & Shorter.
[x] 5'1 - 5'3.
[ ] 5'4 - 5'6.
[ ] 5'7 - 5'9.
[ ] 5'10 - 6'1.
[ ] Tall. 6'2 & Taller.

Naturally..

[ ] Blonde.
[ ] Redhead.
[ ] Auburn.
[ ] Brunette.
[ ] Dirty blonde
[ ] Light Brown.
[ ] Dark Brown.
[x] Black.
[ ] Don't Remember.

[ ] Blue-Eyed.
[x] Brown-Eyed.
[ ] Green-Eyed.
[ ] Hazel Eyed|Brown Eyed.
[ ] Honey|Green-Eyed.
[ ] Silver|Gray-Eyed.
[ ]Green-Eyed.
[ ] Blue|Gray-Eyed.
[ ] Change Colors

You Have..

[x] glasses
[ ]Contacts.
[x] Braces
[ ] none(anymore)

Hair Length..

[ ] Short.
[ ]Medium.
[x] Long Hair.
[ ] Bald.

You've Done..

[ ] Rafting.
[ ] Water Skiing
[ ] Camping.
[ ] Horseback Riding.
[ ] Surfing ..
[ ] Water Polo.
[x] Snowboarding.
[x] Skiing.
[ ] Street Luging.
[ ] Cheerleading.
[ ] Lacrosse.
[ ] Street Hockey.
[ ] Gymnastics.
[x] Martial Arts.
[ ] BMX.
[ ] Tubing.
[x] Rock climbing.

You Can't Stand Listening To..

[ ] Country.
[ ] Classical.
[ ] Techno.
[ ] Oldies.
[x] Opera.
[ ] Reggae.
[ ] Emo.
[ ] 80's.
[ ] Disco.
[x] Gore
[x] Metal.
[x] Hardcore.
[ ] Rock.
[ ] Rap|HipHop.
[ ] R&B
[ ] Classic rock.
[x] Polka.
[x] Gospel

Clothing Brands You Like..

[x] American Eagle.
[ ] Hollister.
[ ] The Buckle.
[ ] Abercrombie & Fitch.
[ ] Wet Seal.
[ ] O'Neill.
[ ] PacSun.
[ ] Aeropostale
[ ] Dickies.
[x] Roxy.
[x] Guess.
[ ] Hot Topic.
[ ] Tripp
[x] Champs.
[ ] Old Navy.
[ ] Volcom.
[ ] Forever 21.
[ ] Limited Too.
[ ] Salvation Army|Goodwill.
[ ] Other thrift stores.
[ ] Wal*Mart
[x] If I like it I'll wear it.
[ ] Other.
[x] who gives a shit? if it looks good wear it.

Your Confessions..

[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I've collected comic books.
[ ] I read and watch the news.
[x] I watch Disney movies.
[x] I don't like killing bugs.
[ ] I have/((had)) x's in my screen name.
[x] I cook well.
[ ] I have worn pajamas to class
[ ] I like Martha Stewart .
[ ] Ozzy is my hero
[ ] I love church
[x] I always do my homework
[ ] I still have my pokemon cards
[ ] I like sneezing

these things always end stupidly

it's 11 pm and it's still too hot outside

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 02:57:58 GMT

no work until friday. this sucks. i need to make more money damn it! and i need an excuse to tell him that i can't go out with him on any day of the week he asks me about. blah. i felt bad when he told me he was given 6 tickets from the RIDE thing cuz of his car, and it totalled over $700, but i was glad when he said that he's gonna give up asking me out for awhile cuz he won't have money now (i'm not even that kind of girl but whatever. as long as it stops him from asking me out, he doesn't need to know). buuuut he seemed to forget about that as i was leaving work and asked me out to dinner tomorrow night.

he's a nice guy and everything... but gah. previous post.

...

should i just give up all hope of it working out between us and give this new guy a chance?..

my fortune cookie: "sometimes even love shows a re-run"

Mon, 31 Jul 2006 05:38:12 GMT

woo..a month left of summer.. it just flew by.

how come most ppl seem to want the things they can't have? and by things, i mean person. they can have a bunch of ppl chasing after them, but they always go for the one person who doesn't want them. They hurt everyone who tries to get close, including him/her self because they're clinging desperately to false hope that maybe someday, things could work out. how come they don't just give up and move on? why, in their eyes, can't anyone else compare to that person? how come they're still there for that person no matter what kind of crap he/she puts them through?

Where is everyone? =\ it's like the same 4 ppl posting regularly

it's been 5 years and I'm still here. still not over you.. still rejecting every guy because none of them could compare to you in any way. none of them could ever make me feel the way you do. none of them could ever know me as well as you know me. after everything we've been through, i still like you a lot. i don't care if you've hurt me. the amount of pain that you've put me through is absolutely nothing compared to how happy you've made me these past few years. Whether or not it ever works out between us, I'm just really glad I got to have such a great person in my life. I couldn't have gotten through the hard times without you. I couldn't have had as much fun during the good times without you either. You've always been the first to know everything, and most of the time, you were already there with me when it happened. I know you're not perfect, but you're the closest thing to it.. at least to me you are. There are so many more things that I want to tell you but I just don't have the guts to do it. Just like I don't have the courage to tell you any of this either.. It's probably better that I don't anyway. There's less than a month left now before you leave. Every time I see you this month (if i even get to see you at all), could be the last time I see you. I hope it won't be and we'll still keep in touch, but if not... eh.. i'll worry about that when the time comes. Just a warning, if you can see this.. I'll most likely be a lot less willing to let you leave when I see you. Hope you finally find what you've been looking for.. if you haven't already found it. I'm gonna miss you most.

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 14:42:02 GMT

i can't believe we're actually done high school. in just a little more than a month, we're gonna be all over the place, meeting new people, doing different things. Lots of people going to York and lots of people going back to Carter. That's not bad, but it's the people going away that makes this suck. Are we actually gonna keep in touch and stay friends or is it all over after August?

Ahh this sucks.

i miss you already.

I'm leaving messages and voicemails telling you I miss you
Baby am I doing too much
Why you tryna diss me when I just wanna kiss you
Baby am I doing too much
Tell me what's the issue
Who I give these lips to
Baby am I doing too much
This is turning into something I ain't hip to
Baby am I doing too much

See you got me all alone waitin right here by the phone
For you to call me, just to hear your voice tone
I keep on wondering if you was even feeling me,
I keep on wondering if this was even meant to be
Tell me I'ma waste of time, boy you showing me no sign,
Is it cuz u on ya grind, cuz you're always on my mind
I keep on wondering if everything you said was true
I keep on wondering if you were really coming through

Now here I go again blowing you up,
And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing too much
Now here I go again blowing you up,
And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing too much

I'm leaving messages and voicemails telling you I miss you
Baby am I doing too much
Why you tryna diss me when I just wanna kiss you
Baby am I doing too much
Tell me what's the issue
Who I give these lips to
Baby am I doing too much
This is turning into something I ain't hip to
Baby am I doing too much

I'm out with my girls tryna have a good time
And you know I'm looking fly tryna meet some other guys
But it gets hard sometimes cuz there ain't no one just like you
I try my best but I can't shake this thing u got me going through

All I can picture is the color of your eyes, and the way you make me smile
I ain't felt this in a while,
But I came to a conclusion that this is pure illusion
Chaos and confusion but I'm not gonna let it ruin
The way I feel about myself cuz I got self-esteem,
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just chasing a fantasy

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 03:30:36 GMT

What am I supposed to do?...

I can't make any kind of decision until I find out the truth.
I can't find out anything until I talk to him.
I can't talk to him because I'm scared.
If it turns out bad, I've screwed everything up for myself.
If it turns out to be good... I'll be incredibly happy again, but right now I honestly can't see it going that way. I've basically gotten an answer.. he just doesn't know the questions yet.
I don't know if he ever will.
If I get an actual answer I don't want to hear, I'll be hurt again.
I don't want to be hurt again... but at least it'd be in person.
If I get the answer I hope it will be, it could be the closest thing to perfection.
I think I'd rather not find out anything at all, leave everything the way it is, and just see what happens.
I'd rather not know and keep a friend
than know and have everything blow up in my face.
if it risks something good happening, so be it..

the stupid thing is i never would have brought it up again or even thought about it if it wasn't for what someone asked me. jackass.

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 23:51:49 GMT

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 23:15:50 GMT

holy fuckin hell. it started off with one thing gone horribly wrong because i'm a fuckin idiot. then i get to work and little things start going wrong, but it doesn't affect anyone else but me so whatever. at least it's only my week that's ruined now (you don't get it and i don't care). then fuckin everything starts going wrong and people are screaming at me, fucking like 6 voids and i only worked a fucking 5 hour shift. i start crying thinking of how much of an idiot i am and how much i've screwed things up for myself now and i still don't know what the hell to do about this thing until friday.
everything was going great.. fun at work, lost some weight, made new friends at work, he came back and i was even happier, nothing was going wrong at home, no arguments with anybody.. it's just been a great few weeks. then i fuck one thing up and everything else fucks up with it! yay me! i can't even count the number of ppl i pissed off today or the number of times i said sorry to everybody. i want to crawl in a hole and die right now.
i know i'm gonna get over it and everything's going back to normal.. maybe. but until friday, i'm just gonna go insane for a bit thinking of all the ways this could blow up in my face more than it should have.